I'm a natural assassin
A massacre in action
I've never known remorse
Or felt any compassion
This is my drug of choice
The reason demons rejoice
My rage remains a beast untamed

I am heartbreak and depression
Regret without redemption
A wounded animal
Afraid of my reflection
I am an epidemic
This is a crime of passion
The willing weak deserve defeat
The penance will be savage


I hate people. They contradict everything they believed at one point. It's stupid. I'm not saying I'm perfect, because I know better than anyone how well I can contradict anything I've ever believed in.

I'm learning not to care. As long as I can make it through my life, however long or short it mayb e, I don't care what anyone or anything does. Life never goes as planned, swearing you'd never do something, just to find yourself a few years later doing exactly what you swore to yourself never to do.

I'm never good at making decisions for my life, I just go where life takes me, even if it takes me out of here to somewhere new, with not knowing a single person out there and just leaving everyone that I've had for as long as I can remember. I do things without ever thinking of other choices I might have. As much as I can hate what you're doing and as much as I could think of just leaving here without looking back...There's a part of me that tells me I have to stay here.

People change too much, I change too much. I feel lately as though I have to be alone. Friends are no longer what I remember, those close to me change beyond recognition. Going from one end of a realm to another in just a few months or so. Human nature is ridiculous. Yes we're bound to change through time, that much is given, but there's acceptable change and unacceptable.

Changes in beliefs are what troubles me most. Not religious beliefs, just personal beliefs about certain aspects or choices that can be taken in life. Stating you would never smoke or drink, and only trying it once and guess what? It's turned into a habit.

It's not as if I don't have next to no one to talk to already anyways. I waste too much time caring for insignificant people that really don't have a care in the world for me.


I'm alone in here
No more feelings
Killed my fears
Don't ask
you'll never know
you're left behind, I'll be exposed

Far away, you keep on trying...
Holding me down, breaking away,
trying to distance my life.
Not one in the crowd, but one with the answer
the one that could change your mind

It's not true, I don't need you
Don't waste your time, and don't waste mine
I'm not your friend, won't soothe your soul
And in the end you're all dead to me...